Start a New Chapter

Hallo Buddies, new April has come and I still stuck in this obstacle. Though, I'm doing progress slightly increased. I changed the movement, but not to mind and heart, sigh. I think enough to be a tough ass, become a nice people are the things I should do now, at least for myself. I had new experiences since 2 weeks ago, I met lecturer that gave me support, made a short movie for my task, until I did research about retails. ButI still feel there is something missing, I don't know what, or I just pretend myself? ha-ha-ha don't ask me.

Well, I'm starting a new chapter of my life, still with my bestfriends, my (hopefully) dreams and ideals, but without the same thoughts. Changing was not easy at all, now everytime I fall, I'll wake up again, so did so on. From now on, I will not let just anyone ruin my day. I'm picky, ya, picky for the best for my own. So sorry for the disgusting things that I did, I'm not that simple, just wanna see something REAL, not FAKED
I no longer knew what to write, so till here first.

Until meet you again!

Coincidence

'Can you question life? Can life question you?'

That quotation from Travelers' Tale's book. Terribly question indeed. I've read that book, so interesting, the writers (comprises 4 authors) told you how love's starting to you in lovely place background (Mostly in Europe). I wouldn't tell you about the story goes, I just wanna share the things that this book purposed. Love, someone's made u crushed on her/him, then they give you wings to fly away through the sky even out. Their made your day brightness, though there's many ways to get you down. Really beautiful indeed. These stories Inspired me to understand that love is coming in either ways, it happens. Listen to love song feels like you get enough of get-getter day, after you met them. Oh love, you make many scientist's doing silly thing everytime they 'touch' you, you make many childern suddenly smart to create any words than their odds. LOVE. Someone says, Love isn't neither happy nor pain, but also they just needs and wants. Wow, I considered about the love, will they deal with me? Will they assure me about the happiness? Mouth will answer with uncertainty, but the time will answer with the truth. I dreamed of going overseas to find out how much things that I missed to know, also seeing the foreigner kisses freely without inhibited. Every country has their own story, sweet, amazing, also biting. Many people going overseas with unintentional meets their 'another heart', everywhere you go, everywhere you find love. But how about the complicated? Ya, they should be responsible for their risk to love. For me love is amazing, amzing for the happiness, amazing for the pain. That's the risk I got. Love seems like a coincidence, but not at all. They still have some doubt, with all fucking reason to leave. Love makes own maze to make the sweeters sometime high, but not rarely make you down. Is there any daring to confess the truth? I know it's really hard even if mouth bend to speak. Don't be lying. If you are not ready to confess, do not lie. However the eyes never be lied, dude. It isn't a coincidence like the love do. It's sign that you wouldn't lied with your behaviour.

Wherever you are, how I wonder how you are..


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Panorama en México!

Dibelahan dunia sana memang tersimpan banyak banget misteri yang selama ini menjadi incaran para ilmuan buat dikemukakan, salah satunya ada di negara Amerika Latin, México. Tepatnya di daerah Cenote Angelita terdapat sebuah 'sungai' cantik dibawah lautan. It's totally wowed me! God made many wonderful things, one of them unbelievable. Kalo para pembaca ada yang suka Diving, u must dive this area! I wonder how beautiful that place. Unfortunately, I've never been go there, if I have any chance? I will. Jadi, terdapat sebuah gua yang jika diselami sampai kedalaman 30 meter, airnya adalah air tawar, namun jika menyelam sampai pada kedalaman lebih dari 60 meter, airnya menjadi air asin. Di dasarnya terdapat sebuah “sungai” lengkap dengan pohon dan dedaunan. Namun, tentu saja itu bukanlah sungai biasa karena sungai tersebut merupakan lapisan hidrogen sulfida sehingga nampak seperti sungai.

This will make you amazed!


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Courtesy: Google!

Aspiring a writer, why not?

beberapa hari belakangan ini saya memperhatikan banyaknya anak-anak muda yang suka meng-'gombal' di beberapa kesempatan mereka menulis. entah itu di notes Facebook, simple quotation di Twitter, ato bahkan menulis diam-diam. Saya salah satu diantaranya. "Apa sih nikmatnya nulis? mending gue langsung ngomong" itu beberapa argumen dari teman-teman saya. Saya juga berkomentar, "gue juga bingung, tapi yang gue tau, nulis itu gak kenal waktu, gak kaya ngomong, berbicara ada batasnya, masa udah tengah malem lo pada masih mau ngomong? bahkan sampe teriak-teriak, yang ada sendal pak RT bakal nimbrung di rumah lo", dalam susunan keluarga saya sih, gak ada yang bakat menulis, tapi saya suka. Why not? dimulai dari gambar-gambar komik ga jelas dari kecil sampai sekarang sedikit demi sedkit menulis dengan teratur. somehow, ketika saya membaca tulisan-tulisan entah karangan siapa, saya jadi berkeinginan keras menjadi penulis, kenapa ya? padahal kalo dipikir-pikir kerjanya hanya seharian didepan laptop, ditemani secangkir kopi, dan membosankan. "iya juga.." tapi saya melihat respon teman-teman saya setelah membaca beberapa cerita atau novel, dimana mereka benar-benar menghayati cerita yang disuguhkan. "wow, segitunya kah effect sipenulis?" How to make everyone be expressed and love to the plot. cool, right?




Ya, nambah satu lagi impian saya, next apa lagi ya? nanti ajalah saya pikirkan, so now I'm aspiring to be an author, do you? :D

All By Your Self

I returned home, right while it rained quite hard in this afternoon. Scream as loud as the people I love, everyone has fears, even more so with loneliness. I'm seeing those dramas which have to seen, abandoned and left. happy people never knew it, they just knew how to be laughing, and also loving. How about yourself? What are you part of both? loss is a painful thing, same as you leave someone. There's no hope, no love, no glory, no happy ending, as Mika's said in his song 'Happy Ending'. Actually no one wants to leave, especially left, when they leave, sometimes crying is one of apology, as well as vice versa, the left crying is the answer. who wants to blame? who's going to be responsible? The right answer is our self. That be who we are ourselves, therefore we are also undergoing. When feels left out, whether we feel have a purpose? We are crying a lot, until we didn't found anything. No trusted, no living, anything feels that will be feeling. In the end, people will live alone, no one to share, no one to laugh, there's just myself and my older age. When are obliged to leave the arms is the last word should be pronounced, how about left without a definitive solution? Messing world have been waiting to thru, like myself who slowly began to move away from the thoughts that are disrupting. I'm gonna be happy with this.





All By My Self

2010's Tracking

Happy new year anyone! get my soul back, get my mind back! ya, itu yang saya kampanyekan dalam diri saya saat ini, tahun baru berarti adalah angka baru buat saya, as people said "You won't be happy when u won't start it" well, I'm starting my first January with many wishes. First of all, I want my braces removed! argh, sudah tidak betah dengan stuff satu ini, then get my dreams back and be happy again :D. Tahun 2010 bukanlah tahun 2012 yang dimanfaatkan banyak orang untuk hal yang komersil, melainkan 2010 ini adalah awal untuk berusaha keras lagi dalam melangkah kedepan, bukan kebelang, lebih-lebih lagi jalan ditempat! Awal tahun saya mulai tersenyum lagi, bukan pura-pura, ini senyum beneran! setelah melewati berbagai macam lika-liku kehidupan yang setiap orang pasti kena gilirannya, saya pun kembali cerah lagi (yaa walaupun bulan ini rumah saya kebanjiran terus, cerah dari Hongkong!) dan lebih mengerti kehidupan, as well.

2010, saya gak muluk-muluk.. ijinkan saya meraih mimpi saya ya, ijinkan semua orang yang bermimpi keras buat mewujudkannya soon as possible. This year's wishes will be waiting too long..

Just saying, yeah! This year will be mine! :D





Happy-New-Year-Geeks!

Hebatnya Si "Penyemangat"

setiap orang pasti punya penyemangat, even itu mimpi-mimpinya sendiri, keluarga, pacar, bahkan binatang kesayangan yang selalu membuat 'empu'-nya pengen cepet-cepet pulang kerumah. Itulah kenapa si penyemangat ini selalu membuat diri kita seperti punya tujuan hidup. Ya, saya juga pernah merasakan itu. Rasanya enteng banget ya hidup di bumi, masalah yang datang selalu aja di lawan dengan senyuman, mau lagi di omelin orang tua, di musuhin temen, di marahin sama bos, sampe dapet nilai kurang memuaskan dikelas pun tetep bisa senyam-senyum. Malahan kita bakalan bilang sama diri sendiri: "gue pasti akan bisa lebih dari ini!". Begitulah kira-kira kata yang bisa mewakilkan rasa semangat yang menggebu-gebu demi untuk menunjang si penyemangat ini. Saya pun begitu, saya selalu bilang pada diri saya sendiri, bahwa saya tau apa yang saya jalani, beberapa bulan yang lalu. Iya, beberapa bulan yang lalu yang benar-benar membuat saya buta kerja, buta ngerjain tugas, sampe buta terus ingin merasa senang. Dari -/+ 5.7 Milyar penduduk Bumi 'yg masih nafas', pasti satu sama lain mempunyai semangat yang berbeda-beda. Dan saya memilih "ini" untuk menjadi penyemangat saya. I think there never was a mistake, when we cheer something.. May people will not understand with this, but I'm really enjoyed it.. Sedikit sedih (bohong besar) saat saya tahu saya kehilangan penyemangat saya, hidup saya mulai uring-uringan, saya juga gak tau kenapa senyum yang biasa mangkal di mulut saya berubah jadi kapal Posseidon yang terbalik karena terkena gelombang yang super dahsyat. Seperti Kanta, teman saya yang sedih banget ditinggal anjing puddlenya mati. Eits, tapi penyemangat saya lebih berharga dari seekor anjing yang hanya menghibur dengan kelucuannya, ini lebih, bahkan dahsyat buat saya (agak berlebihan ya? hehe) ini bisa menginspirasi saya buat menulis banyak tulisan sampe saya gatau lagi mau ngungkapinnya. Ini bisa membuat saya selalu rajin ngampus disaat gada pelajaran sekali pun, dan ini bisa membuat saya tau apa yang saya jalani. Hebatnya si "penyemangat".. saya gak egois yang menyalahkan suatu situasi atau kondisi yang mungkin membuat saya merasa kehilangan, no way for do this.. I just felt no encouragement for now, the deepest encouragement. samapi saya terpikir suatu kalimat yang benar-benar membuat saya setuju dengan pemikiran saya, bahwa:

"I don't really need a money, I just need you, because if u were here, I would be excited to collecting more money!"

That's true! the power of encouragement was great! No wonder if these words could be realized, maybe I will be the richest man in the world, or the happiest poorman in the universe! Once again, words never come easy as I wrote.. thanks pep